Love and sadness surround me today
Mothers Day.
The one day of the year when people get to show appreciation for their mums.
Never mind they should be appreciated every day of they year, apparently we need a special day for the purpose.
Doubtlessly there are many who do show their appreciation throughout the year, however there are more who seem to think the 2nd Sunday in May is sufficient.
And do NOT get me started on the retailers who see it as nothing more than another reason to make money! {oh no!! let’s not go there!!}
Mothers day has never been big for me because for 38 years I’ve not really had anyone to celebrate it with.
Yes, my father has a wife, but that’s not my mother, so I’m not going there either.
It’s been different since having kids of my own, and as wonderful as that is, I’m sure they understand when I say it’s not the same.
My point is this.
There are countless people in the world who would sell their soul to the devil just to have someone to show their appreciation of in any way, with me being one of them.
If you’ve never been where I sit, you would find it difficult to understand my passion on this subject.
If you sit where I do, then {{{hugs}}} because it’s quite the painful position, I know.
To those who take the opportunity to appease their conscience on days such as this with flowers or no more than a few resentful hours outside your busy lives, shame on you!
This is the person who gave you life!
Loved you, nursed you, protected you, put up with all your shit as a teenager and doubtlessly made sacrifices you’re probably not aware of, and never will be.
These are the things that mothers do with little or no fanfare, because they’re mothers.
It always amuses me that many don’t appreciate what they have until they don’t have it.
I didn’t.
Don’t make the same mistake I did. Appreciate her now!
And don’t wait for one day of the year.
Make an effort every day.
Today also marks 38 years since my Mum died, and when Mothers Day falls on this particular anniversary, the day is always a little more difficult for me, and my emotions run a little closer to the surface than normal.
Far to difficult to express with any semblance of coherency, so not even bothering to try seems to make more sense than anything.
Happy Mothers Day to all mothers too!
Onto other things.
Today is also our wedding anniversary, and while it’s not very often the 3 of these things fall together on this one day, it’s a very confusing sensation when they do, I can assure you.
Quite the bittersweet thing is happening in my head as you can well imagine.
Know that it was quite a deliberate thing that we chose to marry on this day as strange as it may seem.
We had our reasons.
13 years. Good God, where did they go???
Seems like only yesterday….sigh….
I’m not going to go on for 13 paragraphs though.
I’m simply going to leave this for Mark with one sentence.
Happy anniversary my sweet, and remember…I loved you yesterday, and I do today, tomorrow…..always…no matter what.
Look into my eyes you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart search your soul
And when you find me there you’ll search no more
Don’t tell me it’s not worth tryin’ for
You can’t tell me it’s not worth dyin’ for
You know it’s true
Everything I do I do it for you
Look into my heart you will find
There’s nothin’ there to hide
Take me as I am take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don’t tell me it’s not worth fightin’ for
I can’t help it there’s nothin’ I want more
Ya know it’s true
Everything I do – I do it for you
There’s no love – like your love
And no other – could give more love
There’s nowhere – unless you’re there
All the time – all the way
Don’t tell me it’s not worth tryin’ for
I can’t help it there’s nothin’ I want more
I would fight for you – I’d lie for you
Walk the wire for you – Ya I’d die for you
Ya know it’s true
Everything I do – I do it for you
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May 10th, 2009 at 12:35 am
{{{hugs}}} for both of you.
~m
May 10th, 2009 at 2:49 pm
Happy Anniversary to you both. Happy Mother’s Day to you. And a cyberhug to you as well. You will always have your wonderful mother with you. She made you what you are. I’m sure she’s watching over you feeling very proud today.
May 10th, 2009 at 10:56 pm
huge hugs.
thank you sweetie…
a-mum
May 11th, 2009 at 11:53 am
Happy Mother’s Day! And you’re right,when we were young,we didn’t understand the fragility of life and therefore didn’t appreciate the important people the way we should have.
It’s only when we have children of our own do we start to comprehend what it’s all about.Even now,we still have questions.
I hope that you can enjoy today and know in your heart that your mom is smiling for you today.
Happy Anniversary as well!
May 12th, 2009 at 9:46 am
Hey Moe,
Yikes, all three on the same day must be confusing. You’re so right about appreciating things once you’ve lost them – it is a human frailty that all of us have. We always think there will be time for that ‘tomorrow’ don’t we? And sometimes that just isn’t true.
Happy Anniversary to you and Mark – two of the best people in the world, in my opinion. And happy mother’s day to you too my dear – you are a wonderful mum – I know it, so don’t argue with me.
Love
Annie
May 14th, 2009 at 11:20 am
Happy Anniversary (albeit a bit late), and Happy Mother’s Day.
It’s now been 15 years since my Mum died, over half my life, and I still miss her every day. I sometimes wonder how I got here, but everything in my life I can pretty much trace back to that one event – it’s shaped who I am in so many ways. I imagine it does everyone.
Hugs for you – can’t have too many hugs I say
May 22nd, 2009 at 8:52 pm
{{{HUGS}}}
Happy Belated Anniversary & Mother’s Day too- wow, I’m on a roll!